well, i don't really have any deep thoughts to share this time. i do have several unfinished blog posts just sitting there waiting to take on some sort of meaning, yet the words aren't coming as easily these days. this past week or so we've been busy with "normal" things, both by choice and not: i'm trying to get back into my sewing/embroidery business, kate and i have been outside quite a bit enjoying this beautiful weather, and we have also had the unfortunate experience of a car in the shop and an emergency with one of our pets. on the same day. you know...normal stuff.
we are doing great though. i really feel like we did most of our grieving for jonathan while he was still alive. i feel a bit guilty about that, like maybe we should be grieving for him more now, but we just feel so much peace that it's hard to feel anything else. i know we'll have a few bad days here and there for many months and years to come, so i don't want to take these good days for granted. having lots of good days doesn't make me miss him any less...just makes it more bearable that he's not here. thank you for continuing to pray for us.
one thing i am starting to do is to look for things i can do to "remember" jonathan (not like i really need any help with that.) but you know, keepsake-type stuff. right now, all of his blankets, clothes and hospital belongings are put away in decorative boxes. i have an idea to make a "memory wall" with some of his things, such as a shadow box or two, but i'm not sure if i'm ready to go through those boxes.
i am also on the lookout for some personalized jewelry ideas. my mother has an opal stone and eight tiny diamonds just waiting to be used for something. she offered them to me a couple of months ago. coincidentally, jonathan's birthstone happens to be an opal and he was born on the 8th. i am probably going to get an engraved pendant of some sort as well.
so...if any of you know of some great personalized jewelry websites or keepsake ideas, please let me know!
in the meantime, i have some blogs to finish :)