happy 9 months of heaven to my sweet jonathan today. it's hard to believe that now he's been gone longer than he lived here with us.
the good news is that we're getting closer to actually buying him a monument for his gravesite. i went into a monument store this past tuesday to check out the options. we pretty much already know what we want, but we just haven't followed through with the order. i was doing pretty good emotionally until i heard the sales lady talking to a man who was making a monument order for his baby boy that just passed away july 2. i heard him say that his wife got to hold the baby for 6 hours.
and that's when i knew that i wasn't going to be able to be as strong as i thought i would be.
i also sure felt sorry for the sales lady. two customers wanting monuments for two baby boys in the course of 15 minutes. probably not her ideal sale.
so hopefully we'll complete the order in the next week or two and have the monument in place by his first birthday.
and that will be the last thing we have to do for him, to give him everything he "needs."
the finality of it all is quite depressing.